I feel lost in such a wide open space of emptiness yet fullness.
I know that you know that I know that you know, YOU CAN’T play the victim in this situation, almost everyone has a part to own up to, or DROP IT and LEAVE IT BE! Honestly this whole situation and everyone getting mad or every little tiny thing that happens is pissing me off! I’m sick of it!!!!!
I feel nothing but pain…
I think now is the time to see him, like that’s going to happen</3
Looks like crying myself to sleep again tonight will solve this issue of forever being alone until I get HIM and HIM ONLY!
1. Loose ALL the weight! (No More Cheeseburgers!?!):
2. Get more confident!!
3. Find the courage to do what I want so badly!!!
4. Be happy forever&always!!!!<3
Tonight I watched something that was so amazing, that it was depressing. It was only depressing because I WISH SO MUCH that it was me, and not them, but it’s not, and now I have to try even harder if I ever want to make ‘it’ happen. But I know how much I want this, because I nearly cried my eyes out watching and wanting and hoping, well time to get started, first thing in the morning…after work. ^-^
Family- it’s supposed to be the most important thing. The thing that comes first, before anything.
Yeah right. Not for me, they’ve already spoiled my entire life before it’s even started.
They’ve ruined my plans.
Crushed my dreams.
Stole my heart and broke it, and won’t give it back.
They play me like a puppet.
They purposely push my buttons.
They’ve been my worst nightmares in and out of dreams.
They treat me like dirt.
I’m never good at anything to them.
I cry they don’t care, they tell me to suck it up and shut up.
I’ve had MAJOR problems with my family members and I still have to be around them, even if I’m angry or even scared of them…
They’ve killed me mentally&&emotionally, and don’t notice, and if they have noticed, they obviously don’t give a shit.
-If&when, then my life would be complete. As of now no one knows, and if I told, they wouldn’t understand. So here’s to the angel, I plan to meet and call mine.
Tonight, I plan to dream of you, nothing but you, and only you, but I can’t control my dreams. Hopefully it’s true about what they all say, that you dream of the last thing you think of before falling asleep.<3 Well here is wishing for that. Goodnight my sweet secret love…<3
GUY’S EFFING SUCK!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I can stand being a girl, having to try so hard for what, some jackass to come along and play the part you want them too and break you when their done ‘playing’. The like what they see, they don’t like what comes out of your mouth, because your expressing an opinion, which makes them feel emasculate. They just want a chick to stand their mouth shut and look pretty, and get them a beer and a sandwich, and obey every word in front of their moronic friends…!! THAT I will not tolerate. So it has now become a WHAT-THE-FUCK-EVER deal to me!